Dissidentica (2017)

Via Dolorosa

Text and music: Lilou & John

Why won’t you go
Why won’t you leave me
Why won’t you find another girl to call your own
Why won’t you go
Why won’t you leave me
Why won’t you find another girl to call your own

I see your shade
Pale through the water
I do not know if I should stay or should I go
I touch my hair
Like yours I used to
It seems like all the world has lost its sense to me

A waterfall
This morning shower
Warm and still I feel the chill all through my soul
I listen to
A voice so endless
I cannot grasp it is my own that sound so sad

Why won’t you go
Why won’t you leave me
Why won’t you find another girl to call your own
Why won’t you go
Why won’t you leave me
Why won’t you find another girl to call your own

I used to be
More than a shadow
I used to think I was your love and you were mine
I feel the touch
Of my own fingers
And for a second I can feel a broken glass

I will not die
Will not surrender
But there is nothing left that I can call my life
I want to feel
Your soul and body
But when I do I feel the cut that drains my heart

Why won’t you go
Why won’t you leave me
Why won’t you find another girl to call your own
Why won’t you go
Why won’t you leave me
Why won’t you find another girl to call your own
Why won’t you go
Why won’t you leave me
Why won’t you find another girl to call your own

The Girl from Antarctica

Text and music: Lilou & John

Mommy you walk out the door
Golden rings all over the floor
Daddy you won’t go with style
You’ll be lonely when you die

Mommy get those knickers on
I am fed up I am gone
Daddy get a grip on life
I refuse to be your wife

You’ll be lonely when you die

Mommy pay the rent for once
Life is not just sex and dance
Daddy come on get a job
Making money makes no snob

Mommy stop this moving round
Or stay some six feet underground
Daddy booze don’t make it fun
When everyone but me has gone

You’ll be lonely when you die

Mommy I am not your toy
Don’t wanna play your girl meets boy
Daddy you laugh when I ’m hurt
Drag me down into your dirt

Mommy no I won’t have sex
With your boyfriend mr X
Daddy don’t you understand
You’ve sunk as low as humans can

Mommy this is my last call
Without you I will never fall
Daddy there is much to say
But that is all too late today

You’ll be lonely when you die

And that is all too late today

Next Year in Jerusalem

Text and music: Lilou & John

A bird came down on wings of fire from the star of sparkling red
He raised his head to the morning sky to honor Masada’s dead
And the sky was black and the city quiet and the shadows walked alone
Only God would know the answer to why they were not home

A wind came down on wings of heaven from the fires of our land
In each heart we lay the flower that only grows in sand
And as the sun was slowly rising over the city paved in gold
The star of David was still flying in every woman’s hand

Only God could know the answer to why they were not home

Solferino

Text and music: Lilou & John

But what did I know as the evening was falling
On the green fields of Solferino
What did I know as I felt how the morning
Wind blew over Solferino

I laid by his side as the wind started blowing
Into his fading blue eyes
I laid by his side as he started speaking
Words that he barely pronounced
I laid by his side and I heard what he told me
As guns started roaring again
I laid by his side and felt how my brother
Turned cold and my arms couldn’t hold him

”Death is an angel that comes from above
In a shroud of silk white winds
Death is a rose by the side of the road
A star that shines from above
Death is a voice that speaks softly and deep
About things beyond our world
Death is a mirror in which we can see
All those beloved and grieved”

But what did I know as the evening was falling
On the green fields of Solferino
What did I know as I felt how the morning
Wind blew over Solferino

”Death is a candle that burns in the sky
That takes us to kingdoms unknown
Death is a tallship with sails painted black
On seas where no sailor is seen
Death is a whisper we hear through the veil
From shadows we can barely feel
Death is the touch from an infinite god
Watching us grow and decay”

But what did I know as the evening was falling
On the green fields of Solferino
What did I know as I felt how the morning
Wind blew over Solferino

”Death is a battle where heroes are rising
From mud into ethereal triumph
Death is the ocean were all rivers end
Where fishermen set off at dawn
Death is the soft hand that carry us over
The gorge where no mortals can walk
Death is a sister that waits by your side
Until the journey is over”

But what did I know as the evening was falling
On the green fields of Solferino
What did I know as I felt how the morning
Wind blew over Solferino

Bataclan

Text and music: Lilou & John

Death and war
That’s the only thing I ever known
Fuck the whore
The rule of infidels is overthrown
Kill them all
Just cut their heads off let the bodies rot
Heed the call
Listen to the heartbeats as they stop

So lock your door
Bar your window
Hide your soul
Cause I’m coming for you

They will fall
Among the ruins there’s a deep mass grave
Rape them all
Prisoners of war no one will save
Girls and boys
They sold themselves to Satan long before
Got no choice
The West is nothing but eternal war

So lock your door
Bar your window
Hide your soul
Cause I’m coming for you

No more room
For anything but death in your own hell
Kiss the moon
I have no sympathy for infidels
Grind them down
Rape and kill and watch their dirty children die
Burn the town
See the fire spread and reach the sky

So lock your door
Bar your window
Hide your soul
Cause I’m coming for you

9/11

Text and music: Lilou & John

You closed the door to the chamber where everything stops
You turned on the gas with the hands you stole from the savior
You let a smirk crawl up like an angel past your cheekbone
When you heard the news that Warsau lost to Konigsberg

But did you not for once just wonder
Oh God what have I done

You knew right from wrong you said and raped the pale young woman
Then you watched her die in a mass grave in Kolyma
Her hands lost their grip on a baby clinging to her
They turned into ice as you saw the winter come

But did you not for once just wonder
Oh God what have I done

You boarded the plane with the smile of a school child
Sat next to an eight year old girl from Iowa
Then you and your brothers took control of the airplane
Heard the screams in panic as you saw New York

But did you not for once just wonder
Oh God what have I done

But did you not for once just wonder

Spirit of America

Text and music: Lilou & John

From Europe they came
And gave it its name
This great nation founded by migrants
Who, united by faith
Made this country so great
And gave their lives fighting the giants
Just like Nathan Hale
Their spirits prevailed
Say “bow not but stand up to tyrants”

Aaaaah America
Aaaaah America

And they built the land
With the engineers’ hands
And the gun and the Christ and the cattle
They saw it come true
What God only knew
This union of grain and of metal
And over the sea
Throughout history
They came and they saw and they settled

Aaaaah America
Aaaaah America

And the people who fought
For the freedom they sought
They prevailed and they conquered the mountains
In the old village church
All the wars of the earth
Stretched out like waves far beyond counting
They knew that a land
Needs a gun to withstand
When the hammer of hell comes a-pounding

Aaaaah America
Aaaaah America
Aaaaah America

Payback Day

Text and music: Lilou & John

Betrayal yes life was betrayal
A sewer that’s where you were born
Born to a life of indifference
Prejudice violence and scorn
You learned that trust was a bastard
Tried to rise after each blow
Crawled in the dirt on your knuckles
You swore you’re the last one to go