100 Faces (2016)

HE BROKE MY NECK, JOSÉPHINE

he broke my neck – yes he did, joséphine
this cannot be – it must be a dream
i see you cry beyond the black veil
you are so beautiful and yet so frail

for months i have tried to take you away
but you were too scared and decided to stay
you said that we could not survive on our own
two ten-year-old girls without any home

he broke my neck – yes he did, joséphine
you wonder how everything could might have been
but sweet love – do not blame yourself for my death
i will always be your lizabeth

every time he hurts you, my love
i look down at you like a star from above
so close to you but not there by your side
i would have kissed you had i been alive

he broke my neck – yes he did, joséphine
your father who found the small space between
the roof and the wall where you kept me from him
waiting for our new life to begin

you are so hungry – too pale and too cold
i know, joséphine – you will never grow old
slowly he breaks down your body and heart
your father that killed me and tore us apart

he broke my neck – yes he did, joséphine
but i can still reach you throughout every dream
someday you’ll find me, your ‘lizabeth
then we will be free in the silence of death

yes we will be free in the silence of death

SIX YEAR FAREWELL

let’s go to paolo’s – walk in the rain
go to the zoo today – catch a train
go anywhere we want to go, drink ’til dawn
forget that i was one day even born

let’s do a nightclub – or picnic in the parks
sit there in the grass – listen to the larks
pretend they are in love – though they are not
let me forget i saw what i forgot

that’s it – what i want is what i get
yeah, i’m only happy when i forget
yeah, i’m only happy when i forget

let’s say i love you – fingers crossed
let’s say i know what i’ve lost
i wanna get away – stay anyway
forget what i desire – cut the pain

i’ll buy myself a ton of sleeping pills
call it accessories for deeper thrills
pretend i’m happy – need no break
lie and forget that i am fake

that’s it – what i want is what i get
yeah, i’m only happy when i forget
yeah, i’m only happy when i forget

let’s say we go separate ways
we could meet again someday
it’s a lie – i know – that is true
my biggest lie is “i love you”

that’s it – what i want is what i get
yeah, i’m only happy when i forget
yeah, i’m only happy when i forget

yeah, i’m only happy when i forget

100 FACES

you think you know the part of me
that is not skin and bone
trapped behind my 100 faces
i am all alone
i stare out through a veil of glass
that’s never gonna break
on the outside i am just
the one you want – a fake

rainy day
the umbrellas are up and running
all along the street
first of may
puddles of water
splashed onto my naked feet

i walk alone
i wear no clothes
i wear no make up no perfume
just a dream
where i can be the one
no one has ever seen

bird of prey
i walk into the park
and see the hawk with silicon eyes
seize the day
be hungry for more
and passionate and live your life

polished chrome
my face is like a 50’s
big american car
just a dream
i am a faded memory
a perfect sunshine machine

a fake
a fake
a fake
a fake

GOD

i saw you on the night sky
in a space suit from soviet
i saw you climb for freedom
over the berlin wall
i saw you drive a racing car
sign up for new york jets
more than that i cannot recall

i saw you in a uniform
on sepia photographs
i saw you in your glasses
at charles de gaulle
i heard you had negotiated
peace in vietnam
more than that i cannot recall

but i know your life was just a mesmerising dream
i told myself to hide away all that i had seen

i saw you talk to natives
in papua new guinea
i saw the world cup final
when you scored that goal
i saw you win the marathon
on our color tv
more than that i cannot recall

but i know your life was just a mesmerising dream
i told myself to hide away all that i had seen

i saw you race to antarctica
on the open seas
i heard you on the radio
the god of rock and roll
i saw you with a nobel prize
in white laboratories
more than that i cannot recall

but i know your life was just a mesmerising dream
i told myself to hide away all that i had seen

WHEN MURDER VICTIMS DIE

my eyes they mesmerised me
when i was a kid
saw beyond the seas of blue
saw beyond the lids
caught by my own torture
isolated by
my own wish to survive where
all i could was die

mirrors they deceived me
told me who i was
said to me remember
all that you have lost
this is your life abandoned
by your family
cast out into the abyss
of a raging sea

voices caught me freezing
coming from the dark
of the bedroom corners
the whisper from my heart
beware oh little soldier
your sword is made of wood
just remember – when you die
you did the best you could

endless was the long line
of empty shallow days
behind the wall of self deceit
where i chose to stay
i came out to the starlight
the nights that were so clean
just the fading torture
from a mesmerising dream

at night the wind was chilly
at least i wasn’t home
werewolves out for children
left my mind alone
i wasn’t scared of ghosts there
they hid within the walls
of the house where death awaited
behind the wooden door

hallowed be thy name, they said
but i knew they were wrong
there is a pit where gods and devils
will not stay for long
a fear so deep and painful
it makes a demon cry
alone it is, alone when
murder victims die

my eyes they mesmerised me
when i was a kid
locked myself out from the world
scared behind the lids
caught by my own torture
isolated by
my own wish to survive where
all i could was die

my own wish to survive where
all i could was die